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Thursday, January 08, 2009

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 17:42:47 GMT

Diet Journal # 3

breakfast
1/2 can of peaches

total calories 100

Lunch
2 eggs
1 cup of whole milk
1 tbsp of butter

total calories 390

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 13:38:24 GMT

Dinner
1 McDonalds Fruit n Yogurt Parfeit
1 Large orange drink

total calories 200

total calories of the day 750

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 13:23:48 GMT

Diet Journal Entry # 2

For lunch I had
1 Spinach wrap
4 slices of salami
2 slices of provolone cheese
2 tomatoes
1 hand ful of Lettuce.
The rest of a propel bottle of iced tea

Caloric total :500 calories

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 09:56:29 GMT

This is my first Diet Journal Entry.

At 5:52am jan 7th 2009 for breakfast I ate

1 cup of cheerios
1/2 skin milk
8 peach slices

total calories 250

My Flixster's movie test results!

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 18:39:43 GMT


	My Flixster

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 04:50:10 GMT

It just hurts so much it hurts more than i can speak.

All i want to do is sleep and just have everything go away til i feel alright and i can love without hiding my feelings about how much i hurt and just want to be gone away from the world. I just want to be alright and i wanna be happy. It feels like im dying inside being torn apart and i cant stop it no matter what i do and i just wanna be alright it feels like everythings crushing me and my spirit and all i can do it cry and bleed and scream and scream and be alone no matter how much i love im just so alone. I want to be okay i just want to be able to have someone hold me and not let go and for it not to tear me apart inside it hurts to love and have others love me i hate being so damned alone with everyone who loves me around me. I hate crying i just want all the pain to stop and i dont want to hurt people anymore i dont want to hurt them and make them cry and break their hearts i dont.... i make my own skin crawl and i hate being me i hate being in my body i just... sometimes i pray i have to courage to pull that razor against my wrists and end it all because my hearts breaking im dying in the inside out and nothing i do can change that i try so hard and all that comes out is tears and blood. KNOW THIS AMBER JT AND DRAGGIE I LOVE YOU WITH EVERYTHING IN ME BUT IT ALL HURTS SO MUCH I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAY AND DO SOMETIMES AND I HAD TO TELL YOU BEFORE IT GOT SO BAD I SHUT YOU ALL OUT COMPLETLY.

LOVE AVI

Friday, January 05, 2007

Fri, 05 Jan 2007 03:23:25 GMT

Hey Everyone its Ericka or to my love Avi,

I know its been a while since ive posted but yeah ive had alot to deal with. Im a senior now who will be going to prom in a few months on the verge of graduation. i got a love in my life and his name is Draggie for short. Well you guys call me or im me once in a while aiight check ya later.

Blessed be and G'night Avi

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Tue, 03 Jan 2006 12:16:55 GMT

Hey you guys check this out.
Read it and leave me some comments

I’m tired so tired of how we walk around as if mortality is just something someone made up. We are a reckless race we destroy ourselves, our homes, each other and the creatures and things put here on this planet for us. Why? Why would a child choose to be born if I knows its parents are going to beat it and each other till there is nothing left but an empty shell of what could have been had the sins of the father and mother not been passed on. Why do we use religion against one another why not just let the though of an entity be enough or if that cannot satisfy our appetite for spirituality let to each his own with out this holy war of religion as well as sexuality versus the bible, they have nothing to do with you so let them live their lives. What is the reason for ridiculing someone unless there lays many self-hatred issues of your own which you don’t wish to deal with or as a way to boost you’re lacking self esteem? What really lies underneath that pound of make-up and weave and facade is there truth of more lies is there sincerity or is there shame hatred of undoubting love and devotion? Do you see right through the façade that everyone puts up and hate it even though you wear the same mask as them? Does your world dissolve when you reach the front doors or your steps or as soon as you realize that’s the place you have to return to the place where true hell for you? Are you a completely narcissist but pretend to feel things because you wish so badly that you could? Do you have faith that the world will better itself in due time. That you have all the time in the world with the one person you love. Is your belief that justice is bound to prevail always and that wrong doers will punished. There are good people in the world who have been punished never feeling real always able to see the true world the true faces of everyone but always hating the one they wear as keeperof it all. Bleeding to keep their sanity injuring til there is nothing left. Pushing themselves farther away feeling powerless and helpless to stop the destruction. All of the pain in the world feeling all the heartache wishing for some escape and hoping for solace in their loneliness until they can’t take it anymore and oh so smoothly the blade goes across the skin and if its down deep enough across the tendons cutting them and watching their life leave their body. Getting out before they are completely destroyed.

Monday, September 05, 2005

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 22:32:17 GMT

Hey everyone,

I know its been a while since I've written I'm now in my junior year of
high school and i've missed talkin to alot of you so email we once in a
while okay. My writting is full blown i'm trying to make it into a
career and I'm into Photography as well and its great. I was in the
hospital a couple weeks ago for my asthma i had a real bad attack. I
might be moving and i've made alot of new friends this year. I found my
little sister who got adopted, she lives in in england i can't wait to
see her. Well you guys My moms finally taking me to get my a tattoo its going
to be poet in japanese character.

Friday, May 20, 2005

Fri, 20 May 2005 14:55:24 GMT

Dear everyone,

Shit yeah its been a while and i know this i've had alot more blood run since the last time i wrote in this damn blog. I lost her my grandmother to the fucking disease of cancer isn't that a surprise syke not i mean after all whenever someone believes in god mostly they just get pain and suffering isn't that just sad how he repays his loyal subjects. well i do believe in him right now him and i are just havning creative differences so eventually i guess i can stop being mad at him but anyways i'm fully into my wicca now and i've getting more and more control i can astral project now which kicks ass cause i can leave my body whenever i want and no one will ever know. I'm now into skateboarding, music and writting more than ever it seems to be the only source of relief i have that goes along with paper. Well i'm out of here my friends i'll get back at you eventually.